Sand, Wind and Sea

As soon as my bare feet stepped on the beach sand I knew - 'I am loved'.

The sand was soft and warm. Sun was illuminating every particle and it was sparkling - playing 'hide and seek' with my eyes.

I felt warm and inviting sensation inside. I looked far at the horizon and as far as I could see it was the vastness of the sea.

Sun was glowing red hot giving me few more hours before it will dive beyond the line of my sight leaving me with the Moon and the stars.

I sat on the sand and look far away ahead on the water and sky.

I felt absolutely still inside. I can only feel the presence of my mind and nothing else. No fear, no desires and no thoughts.

Just pure joy of being and observing but not judging and thinking small things. Thinking big and imagining big - time, space and galaxies. Thinking about how I take for granted simple day/night and sun/moon changes as if it's an invisible force decided to protect me and created this amazing place where everyone can just be. Protecting all of us from the chaos of the cosmos around.

Thinking how much knowledge we accumulated and how much we still don't know.
Most of all there was no desire to be with anyone or seek company. I felt like the mirror just reflecting the simple realities around me. 
Like a speckle of sand reflecting the sun. 
Solitude, silence and joy were overwhelming as my mind acknowledged the enormity of space and time I am currently given a chance to be part of. 
Joy and humility as I realized that I am being loved.

Love that was given to me from the beginning - I understand deep inside within every cell that I am being given unconditional true pure Love.

All I have to do is to decide what to do with it.

It is real but I will never find who is behind it and the reason.

There is no need to look up the sky in search for signs and clues. There will be none.

All I have to do is to be true to myself , appreciate the gift and try to understand. That is all.

'Thank you' I whispered as my hand gently touched the sand and warm sea breeze washed my face with softness of its moves.

The force which has created this planet was very considerate and loving. 
It left enough room, food and resources for all of us to enjoy for many years. 
Most importantly it left this breathtaking beauty and peace around us.

Pity that so many of us have still have to fight for food, space and resources which we have in abundance.

I know why I feel so at peace and so close to the small yellow grains, wind and the sea which surrounds me.

Once the grains of my time will run through my fingers, wind will scatter my particles on the shore and sea will gently wash them.

This is the only way I can still exist. I will simply change my form and I am completely at peace with it.

My thoughts were slightly interrupted as the man and woman came along and sat not far from me. They were talking about something and glanced at me. Man gave me long evaluating look as if saying - "Lonely guy by himself? Don't look at my woman! I am warning you".

Woman quickly glanced with no particular interest but still touched her bra and hair - "Lonely guy by himself - am I still good-looking?”

Two women came along quickly stealing the couple attention away from me.

Women were middle aged and in to themselves. One was masculine type and bigger than the other one, which was gently build and smaller. They slowly undressed taking their bras off as they proceeded to lie down on their stomachs to sun bake.

They didn't look at anyone and it seems not that interested in what and who was around them.

Bigger woman slowly wrapped her hand around smaller woman waist whispering something into her ear giggling.

Not long after two men came along. One was older and bigger and the other was much younger with some feminine features and very soft an almost woman-like voice. Both looked carefully around as if they were trying to assess the quality and safety of the beach. They decided to position themselves not far away from two women. As the younger man was undressing he was constantly glancing around and looking at his older companion as if asking for his reassurance. The older man simply undressed and went to check the water. The younger man quickly followed him and asked if they going to swim. He was gesticulating and was very happy when the older man nodded in response. Then suddenly he become worried and said to the older man that he forgot his sunscreen and worries for his skin. The older man reassured him that it is Ok as the sunset is not far away and sun not that dangerous anymore.

They went to swim together with younger man staying close to the older man. He then suddenly swam to the older man and embraced him from behind in the water. The man and woman were silently observing them. Man looked at the woman and whispered something to her. He was making the gestures with his hand as if trying to get rid of the flies. But were no flies around.

I knew that they will leave soon as the woman glanced at the women behind them and also whispered something back to her man.

Both got up, looking slightly upset, got their clothes and started to walk away from us along the beach.

Everything has happened very quickly and my mind simply noted what had happened and then returned to its reflecting state.

I was enjoying my peaceful state knowing that I simply don't have time on passing my judgments on others and trying to understand them.

I have just started discovering myself and that was very comforting thought.

Suddenly I felt breath and something warm and soft on my cheek. I turned my head. Beautiful young woman was standing next to me. She smiled to me and then slowly returned to her group which I just noticed not far away from me. They were playing cards. They all laughed and applauded as the woman returned to their circle. She lost and had to kiss me as part of the card game I guessed.

If she wouldn't lose I wouldn't have a kiss. She lost and I won. Did she? Did I?

Game of Life? Someone has to lose for someone to win?

I felt like Kai after Gerda kissed him to get him back from the Snow White. My heart slowly melted as I looked at my Gerda who was already forgotten about me and was consumed by another game. I got up, waved and smiled to her.

As soon as my bare feet stepped off the sand I knew - "I was always Loved" - from the Beginning.